after my series of unwanted sexual encounters over the past weekend, i'm seriousely considering getting a new name and moving to montana...

i am so tired of being objectified, taking advantange of, and just fucking being a girl, i could just scream until it all just comes back up...

and isn't that terrible...i hate being someone who is constantly harrassed (at least in the past week) and i'm not even the ideal woman by far....

but right now what i feel is fear, loathing, anger and intelligently driven drivel will probably not help this situation...

i just hope that there will be one day where women do not have to be afraid to fall asleep in their own house (drunk or sober)...

what happened is not something i want to have to learn from, not something i want to have to tell my own children about when i ask them to not wear such revealing clothing or wear too much makeup...when, in fact, i don't wear revealing clothing or that much makeup at all and this shit still happens...

it just doesn't seem to matter these days, anything goes.

and apparently if you're drunk enough, nothing you do is held accountable...

a couple of months ago i was flying pretty high...i was feeling alright, and just generally having a good time...

now, i'm just a microcosm of what i used to feel like and it's just really past time for me to figure out some priorities and stop fucking around...

do what i came here to do, goddamnit.

and just say fuck 'em.

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