so i got a little curious as to how many calories were in my chipotle burrito...oh, jesus, you do not want to know, it should be illegal to put that many calories in anything and have it taste that damn good...it's a fast food burrito, but still...i was shocked really, i felt as if i should stand up and run in place for the rest of the day (at work, at least) because my greatest fear in life is gaining enough weight to be incapacitated ...uggh, and you would think because of this big 'ol fear i would do more to watch what goes in my mouth, but i don't ....

and in fact, most of my efforts to cut back fail because i never tell anyone that i am cutting back for fear that they will, say, "why haven't you been doing that??!?, i mean, look at you!"

or at least, give me a look that constitutes the same feeling. most women have a secret fear of being fat, (in my opinon) i have a secret fear that i am and everyone just tells me i am not.

enough said, i will, however, talk a walk this evening...just because its just so damn pretty outside and it's a monday...

i had a fairly eventful weekend...i drank a little too much friday, got up way to early on saturday to go to cincy to see stella and i took darla along...*hmm!* she is a fabulous road trip companion and one of my favorite people these days...i hope we keep in touch after she graduates :)

we had a wonderful evening of international food and dance on saturday and made a few stops before we went home to berea, where we promptly ran into jack, at the haiti house, and i stayed around longer than i thought because i'm just going to miss the place so damn much, when they all leave...so i got back to town around 4am :)

(saw luke, no comment)

i also saw dumb o'l Troy this weekend. i'm just so sick and tired of war movies, thinking about war, seeing war on television, realizing that i may never experience war, but hoping that the war ends soon, realizing that peace may never occur....and still hoping.

it's a strange cycle, and it's even stranger to imagine that war has been going on for thousands of years and we have fucked up the process to the point where we don't even see the enemy, we just point weapons at them...

*sigh*

monday...

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