i've been in a place where i have been needin' to gather my thoughts. now this is rather difficult seeing that my classes take up way too much of my time and i also haven't been that good at managing my time lately, so this is how it goes...i'm stressed, this is normal for this time of year..

but i don't want to be.

in fact i don't want to be involved in any of this, to the degree that i am.

school is difficult, but graduating is even harder and its no longer about what i am going to do after i leave, it's more like, am i actually going to get there.

a list:

things that are going on in my life.

my dad moved across town-but it hasn't really sank in

-he's getting married (this either)

my mom and my brother aren't getting along, my bro is being a jerk about her not having a "life partner" and he just generally doesn't get it.

but he will get out of the army very soon.(thank God)

my dad may get married on dec 6th

nicole gets married on dec 27th

my birthday is the 5th

graduation is the 14th

amanda graduates on the 13th

with the addition of christmas and new year's, it's going to be one helluva month.

and in the middle of that i'm supposed to do all these papers and finals.

and it boils down to 5 weeks left and every second counts...

so i'm going to work on a little poetry:

well. nevermind.

i'm stunted.

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