so, the last entry caused a bit of controversy to say the least...

thanks for all those who took the time to actually discuss it with me, it's important that these discussions happen because it allows me to really look at myself and see if it is the right decision, and so far it is...

although i go through the extremes of being happy to being sad...and that is to be expected...

you give a little and give up a little.

so, other than that, i'm looking forward to the break and writing my paper, i think i've got some good ideas and so does my prof, so i'm just going to go with it and write 20 more pages and be done...oh and it sounds so easy, right?!?!?!?!?!?!?

anyhow, i wish i could get some work done at my job...i'm such a slacker these days, when it comes to that...

i'm just not interested in doing it, i'm not interested in doing anything right now. not even read. do i need a break? i think i took one this weekend, when all i did was party...........................

what a different person i have become comparitively....(when it comes to partying, is my reference here)

anyhow, graduation is upon me. i know it will happen, i just don't know how, and what i will do later. i mean, i have all these tenative plans, but i'm not sure that they will make me any money.

for real, yo.

i just keep telling myself to stay calm, don't drink so much caffeine and enjoy myself.

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