when you find out that someone has lied to you about something you subconsciousely knew, (because when you found out you weren't really that surprised) what do you do with that information?

do you ?

a: confront the person and try to understand why that person lied, when most likely the person will just lie and say it didn't happen

b: leave it alone, it's now your information, there is no reason to confirm it.

c: ask the person, if they say yes or no it doesn't matter either way, you did ask them.

d: forget about it completely and just get drunk :)

sure, sure, everyone says D. but i'll wake up tomorrow and wish i did A. even though this information should not matter cause i'm not even really involved with him....anymore, i guess.

jesus christ.

so what's the use of this?

i just hate being lied too and when i find out months later, when i pushed the issue (then) because i knew something was funny....

see, the thing is, when you know someone, i mean really know someone, you know when something has gone on with someone else, because something is different when people have sex, things change, aura changes, little things change...and even if you aren't intimately involved physically, you can tell.

and i knew. but it was confirmed tonight.

i was mad...not real mad, just feeling a little more agressive than usual. and the feeling has somewhat passed because it just proves that...well. what?

it doesn't prove anything, except i'm more confused than i was four hours ago when i just needed to drive around for awhile and get my thoughts together

but those thoughts, all of them, made me cry and some people thing that crying is a bad thing, that means something is wrong, but what it really means i think, is that i need to express emotions in that way, alone...just driving and i was feeling sad, and overwhelmed and absolutely limited on what i could do about anything in my life, and it just felt right and good to cry...so i did.

i'm done with this thought.

and i feel okay. usually these things linger on and i feel bad for a few days...but i just can't waste my time on this, what's done is done.

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