wedding update.

seeing old friends is strange because a part of you is completely comfortable and another part of you is scared to death because this person knows you, but doesn't know how you are now, so you always wonder if you can still get along with all the changes that happen through distance.

usually, my friends don't change, at least the guys don't, i find their lack of change comforting and completely awful at the same time because i don't understand how people can get older and not change at least one thing about themselves, change isn't about i'm a bad person i need to change, but i'm growing older and this is what happens.

and they don't, it's the oddest thing.

all in all however, i wouldn't have missed it for anything, cause it was exactly what i needed from all of them.

i needed to watch him get married, i needed to see how she loves him and i needed to just hang out and just be.

and i did all that.

i learned alot about my friends. i learned what it was like to not have someone to dance with, since i came alone. i learned that cj can put everyone's thoughts into a kick ass best man speech.

i also learned that the people you think are your friends, actually just tolerate your presence.

it's what wedding are for i think, besides that whole "i do" part.

and i know i've been the first to put the smack down on their union. and i would have put a bet down on the end of their marriage before i went to the wedding. but.

as much as i agree with you jennifer, (the look of terror)

i think he's doing what is best for him. and he seems calm and as in love as matt can be.

and i feel more comfortable around him now, then i have in a long time. because i think they really appreciated everyone showing up and having a good time.

and it may be the last time it happens.

i didn't expect it to be fun. and it was.

i didn't expect to see how much they compliment each other, but they do.

i certainly didn't expect to be that intoixcated, but it happened. and i don't think i made a complete ass of myself. as long as people were laughing with me, i'm okay with it :)

i'm sure i'll be analyzing it till the cows come home...it's what i do.

i just hope in six months i can say the same things.

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